A New Road Lies Ahead....

I'm not exactly sure how to post this. After almost six or seven months of work, after all the tears and all the excitement and all the crazy drama I've created, I'm not sure how to word this so you will understand. So I'm just going to tell you what happened, and you can go from there.

About a week ago in church, we had communion. Above our pulpit in our sanctuary is this beautiful illuminated cross. As I looked at its lovliness, I said a silent prayer.

God. I don't want to waste my time with running for things in this world. YOU are what I want, YOU are what I need. I need YOU and I want YOU. Ask me to give up Wake Up Sunshine, I'd do it. Because YOU are what matters most.

Well today, I got to my study hall table, and had some bad writer's block. I asked God to help me, give me an idea as to what happens next. What I heard was:

Close your book, Bethany. This is not what I want. This is no good. Throw it out, keep your characters. But I want a new plot.

What? Was he serious? For five minutes I sat there, my arms folded and staring numbly at my open page. God, do you really want me to do this? I need conformation. I need something to tell me you're sure. I want a sign.

Usually, when I ask for a sign, I take my Bible and let it open to the page God wants it to, and he directs my eyes to the right verse. Today I only had my adgenda book. At the beginning of each month there's these little parables or stories to live by. Such as keep principles, synergy, do your work, stuff like that. Today, he opened me to a page, and directed my eyes to three simple, yet terrifying words.

CREATE SOMETHING NEW.

So, I plan on doing just that. Right now, I'm terrified, lost and scared. I've got my plot, I just need to take that first giant leap. I hope to keep you posted about everything. Wake Up Sunshine is not ending, just going under serious reconstruction. If you go to school, if I'm not upbeat and sunshine-y, know I'm not sad, I'm scared. I'm worried, and I need you all. Thank you to all my amazing readers and friends for their insane tolerance and support. I love you! I'm hoping you'll like the new Wake Up Sunshine soon, I'll try and get it on to webook ASAP.

Love,

Bethany.