Jeeeezzz... Lighten up! :)

So, most of my posts on this thing have been kind of a downer. And all serious like. I really promise, I'm not like that most of the time. I'm an extremely goofy girl who loves having fun! (Really, wipe that look off of your face!) I guess this blog is where I go when I'm not that goofy girl. But right now, I'm in an awesome mood and I'm INSPIRED! Thanks to one of my facebook friends (Gotta love facebook!) I've been inspired to quote some people. I LOOOVEEE quotes! Whether inspiring, hilarious, or dumb, they're great to share and remember. Sooo..... I've found some awesome ones I want to share with y'all! :)

"There are worse things in life than death. Have you ever spent an evening with an insurance salesman?"-- Woody Allen

"Write a wise saying and your name will live forever"-- Anonymous

"I installed a skylight in my apartment...The people who live above me are furious."-- Stephen Wright

"Some people are afraid of heights. Not me, I'm afraid of widths." -- Stephen Wright

"If it weren't for electricity we'd all be watching television by candlelight."--George Gobol.

"If your parents never had children, chances are you won't either." --Dick Cavett.

"If men can run the world, why can't they stop wearing neckties? How intelligent is it to start the day by tying a little noose around your neck?"--Linda Ellerbee

OK, I really like that one! :D

And so I've decided to end with that. Thank you. Love y'all!

Oh, by the way. Be looking out in May for the Annual Writer's Digest competition. I'm entering with a piece I absolutely love! I'll keep you posted!

Beffy ♥

Welcome back, me.....

Wow! Haven't been on here in forever! OK, that's a lie. I HAVE, but I'm just not that sure how to explain everything that's happened to me in the past few months. I've come to learn some pretty good lessons. And I want to share them with you all.

First off, I do want to let you know that the fate of Wake Up Sunshine may not be in total doom. I'm not sure yet. I'm so indecisive. I'll keep you posted on that.

Second, I want to tell you a little story. My heart has been molded and shaped in these past few months, and it hasn't been easy. Back in September or so, I had given up on dating. I wanted some wonderful guy to hold me and tell me I was beautiful and love and adore me and all that jazz, but I realized that wasn't going to happen. I just was simply meant to be single. And then I met this guy my friend Abby brought to church. He was really respectable and a die-hard Christian. He seemed to bee a really good friend. We began to talk often and constantly. We covered some hard topics, he had a lot going on in his life. I felt honored that he could trust me with his issues.

But soon, it got different. He suddenly how much he liked me, and how beautiful I was, so I didn't mind listening. But I couldn't help but think... Is this it? Is this what it means to have a guy like you? Is this what I'm had more and more issues. Suddenly, I was no longer being listened to, only asked to listen. He told me worth? It didn't feel like much, ever. But I still felt flattered and kept going with it.

Then, I went to my school's homecoming. There I met this guy I sort of knew named Andy. We talked, and eventually were shoved at eachother to dance (but that's a different story) I ended up really having an awesome time. Never had I once had someone ask about me like this. He seemed really interested in what I had to say, and he wasn't too bad himself. We ended up talking over the week and he eventually asked me if he could take me out on Saturday. I said yes, but with a broken heart. I had already had to tell the aforementioned guy that I couldn't go to his homecoming (Which was the same Saturday) I felt like I had cheated him to go out with Andy. Even though I had said no to him before Andy had ever asked me out. Either way, guilt ate me, and the guy wasn't helping the situation. I had been guilt tripped and brought down by his dramatics. I was torn. Especially, since through all of this, Wake Up Sunshine was failing miserably. I couldn't make the pieces work, and I feared it could be the end. Through many tears and many nights of just blank stares of numbness, I finally realized what had to happen. Andy's arms were there to comfort me when I thought I wouldn't get the chance to see my dreams through. The other guy told me "I didn't know what it was like to live up to my own standards."

Excuse me? I've tried 10 books now. Each failed because they didn't go by MY standards. Everyone else loved them. I thought they needed dumped. Don't tell me that as my 10th book fails.

I knew what needed to happen. I wanted Andy. He was the guy I cared about and he cared about me just as much. And I didn't want to talk to the first again. I could only take so much, and I had had over my fill.

After months and months of drama and talking to him on and off, I somehow made it through, with Andy by my side. The first guy does not talk to me anymore, finally I typed out a huge text explaining everything I had felt towards him, with Andy right by my side, supporting me. Afterwards, I felt so accomplished. I felt free. Andy congratulated me on being so forward and strong. I felt that I could laugh and breathe again. It was all over, and it felt so good. I had my amazing boyfriend, and no one else to get in the way.

The lesson is this: people eventually show their true colors. And sometimes they aren't so bright. They're going to break your heart and you may have to break theirs. But listen. In the end, it works out. Eventually, you will come out on top. But you need a lot of faith in God and trust in his will to make it through. Remember, he feels your pain. He loves you. He won't let you go.

So I must get on here more often. This felt great :)