Reuniting Will Feel So Good...

This week is going to be hard.

It's a loooonnng week, filled with student council stuff, musical practice, and church for me. And for Andy, it's a loooonnng week filled with Quick Recall, Quick Recall, and Quick Recall. It stinks because we really can't see eachother at all this week, I don't like being apart from him. I'm so used to him being here at the house or me being at his house that when we're apart it's uncomfortable. (I know, I know... but I can't help it.) I don't like a day apart from him, how do I last a week? The answer: Somehow, some way.

But it really scares me when I think about what's going to happen in a year and a half from now. Andy graduates and heads to college, leaving little Beffy behind. What am I going to do when I can't see him for months? I'm terrified out of my mind that he's going to find some hot chick and forget me with everything that comes with college. His degree isn't normal-- It's 6-8 years. HOW THE HECK AM I GONNA DO THAT!?!? Sorry... frusturation.

I do trust Andy- I really do. I would trust him with my life. But there's always that doubt there. That fear really messes with me. It makes me clench my hands and break down, I hold on to him a little tighter knowing that seperation comes closer every day. It kills me I'm this pathetic, but I can't help it. Of course there's letters, email, Facebook, and this blog. But I can't see him face to face. And it's just not the same without that.

The only thing I CAN control is to trust as much as I possibly can, trusting Andy, trusting myself, and trusting God most importantly. He'll help me through whatever rocks we encounter. It'll be ok. Promise.

Love to all,
Beffy ♥